Confidence is termed to be the state of feeling certain about the truth of something. Or the feeling or belief that one can rely on someone or something; firm trust. Mood is a temporary state of mind or feeling or inducing or suggestive of a particular feeling or state of mind. A feeling is an emotional state or reaction or a belief, especially a vague or irrational one.
Soooooo…can the feeling of confidence be owned during a particular state of time or be even temporary? Have you ever felt confident one day and not so confident the next? Nova RAISES HAND!
I sure have. As you know, my confidence has grown over the last few years as I have been working an abundance on myself and my love of self. In this though comes times where I lack confidence, just not as often and much as before, yet, it does happen from time to time.
It had to have happened to me this week. In this pink number that you see me wearing in the photos. I didn’t want to share these photos AT ALL. I did not feel confident in the way I look in them. I mean, look at my fupa. Just look at it…..sitting all out in the open for the world to see.
To be quite honest, I did not feel 100% when I put the outfit on. I hadn’t even noticed my fupa when I initially put it on. Something just didn’t feel right. I challenged myself to continue on and wear it though. And….then….I saw the photos! WTH! I am not sharing these I thought. Not with THAT….not looking like THAT.
I immediately had to check myself and my lack of confidence. Reminding myself that I am me. That I am a gift. That I am unique. That I am the way in which my higher power made me to be. With my fupa and all. That I am not perfect, yet I am. That I am all the things that make me, well, me…….
What Makes Me, Me
What Makes Me, Me are the thick crimson crochet needles which turn a ball into a hat, glove and scarf, All day shopping sprees with the Mamacita and Godmamacita,
The iron bundt pan, pure can sugar and potent vanilla extract, Ghostbusters houses and Batman cars, Days filled playing Nintendo, Sega, Super Nintendo and every video game in between,
Basketball all day with J, Joe, Nick and sometimes Justin,
Floor to ceiling mirrors which reflected every dance move, missing tooth, model pose and curly hair out of the bobo,
What Makes Me Me, are various sized dream catchers, Thick telephone wires used as double dutch ropes, Nickel candies, quarter waters, and Marino’s Italian Icees,
What Makes Me, Me, is the red, green and blue lit projector and colossal screen,
The jolly green giant evergreen filled with huge colored Christmas lights that remained all year round just as that standing tree,
TiTi, Uncle Sonny, and Aunt Gladys, Pearl, Van, Reese, and Ann, Witnessing two births, blessing me to Nina,
What Makes Me, Me, is the massive, squirrel filled, tree-lined park with red benches, steel swings and water sprinkler spouts implanted into the cement, 3 little niñas looking up to me as much as I looked up to them,
Spending my entire 11th grade year getting to know and building with my bestwinnie, whom I would never have imagined would be by my side util the end of time,
What Makes Me, Me, are the painted faces and feathered braids of my long-braided or free flowing hair indigenous ancestors,
My grandmother Daisy who’s memory and presence still lives within me, but feels like it was just yesterday we were “washee” dishes and baking cakes together,
Multi-colored roasted corn, poulet aux noix, yellow squash and brown rice, arroz con pollo, griyo, lambi, y queso frito,
Grandma Arloude’s sweet angelic voice and Haitian melodies, Grandpa Jesse’s wittiness and storytelling,
What Makes Me, Me, are bike rides and laughter across the Southern State Parkway into Baldwin and through the Hempstead streets,
Cutting school to get my nails done and getting caught in Burger King,
Worthwhile memories stored in arty, personalized scrapbooks,
The love, treasured memories, experiences and people are what make me, well,
Walk in your own step, down your own path, lighting up the way!! Believe in yourself while never forgetting what makes you,
Unapologetically Me. Unapologetically You. Unapologetically Us.
Shop the Look:
Please click on the images below to shop my outfit. My INSPR suit is sold out as it sold out in seconds. Just as the other one did. They have some other 2-piece selections that I have included below. Also, my boots are a few years old…yes, yes, another timeless item in my collection. Therefore, they are no longer available. I have included a few other boots with starts on them for ya!
Please do not forget to tag me and hashtag #inspiredbynova if you purchase any items from my look! OR are inspired by me in any way!!
Happy Shopping!! :D